Simplify

 

The theme word for the next few weeks is 'Simplify'.

 

I stopped taking my anti-depressants... even tho I was warned not to.  I effectively and accidentally weaned myself off them by only remembering to take them every couple of days or so... I feel better.  I feel clear headed and rational.  I feel as if I can take action on things that I want to do. I think they were starting to do more harm than good, and I feel fresh and clean without them circulating through my body.

 

I cleaned out my cupboards and donated all the items that had wheat or grains in them to the food bank.  Soup cans (third ingredient, wheat!), pretzels, sauces, crackers, pasta, gnocchi (boy I was sad to see that go!).  I threw out the last of my easter bunny and half a bag of frozen perogies.  I can now eat anything in my house and it's 100% on the 'approved list' for grain free!

 

I went to Costco with Sam and purchased perishables.  My fridge is stuffed with produce and fish and pork.  I don't need to spend money between now and next grocery shopping trip.  Everything I need is in my house.  What a nice feeling!

 

I decided to knit again last night... Instead of fooling around digging through my stash, I walked into my office and picked up two skeins of yarn that I had originally wound for our San Fran trip. With that yarn and my needle case, I wandered back to the living room, found a pattern and started knitting. Simple garter stitch in a shocking stripe.  It's perfectly simple, perfect...

 

 

I did two loads of laundry this weekend.  Not a huge deal to some, but having lived in an apartment for 11 years and having to cart my dirty laundry back and forth to a laundromat was kind of a pain.  Having it in my building and being able to putter around and knit and clean and watch tv while it was washing and then drying was a beautiful thing! Simple... easy... perfect!

 

Every dish in my house and article of laundry in my house is clean and put away.  My stack of washable swiffer cloths are out in plain view to be used daily.  Simple to clean your house when you sweep the globs of cat hair daily!

 

I've taken to reading the ingredients on packages of cosmetics and body care products and circling in red the items that I wish weren't in them.  The further down the list and the fewer of them there are, the more likely I am to consider keeping them till they're done and then replacing.  The idea of having simple food to fuel my body and simple ingredients to care for the exterior, the better.

 

I bought a shower caddy so that I don't have to balance my body products on a 2" ledge that sits at a 30 degree angle... It makes showering much more enjoyable.  I also fixed my face wash bottle so that it actually pumps face wash out without having to fight with it.  Another simple thing that makes me feel more in control and less agitated.

 

All of these things may seem silly and... well... simple to some, but for someone whose life has been out of control for a while, it's a warm cozy swaddle.  It feels comfortable and soothing...

 

Here's a picture of the beginning of my shawl... the colors are pretty accurate!

 

 

Here's a picture of my fridge after it's cleanse and Costco trip. What you can't see is the fish and pork

 

 

Here's a couple pictures of Saturday morning when we went around the Seawall (10km).

 

 

Here's a gratuitus kitty picture... he decided to lay beside me in the morning... it made me smile because he's not a cuddler!

 

 

And here's a picture of what happens when you try and change the sheets and you have a feline cannonball... pretty hard to make the bed with a 13lb lump with claws in it!

 

 

And finally, here's my chicken salad from last night... Greens, tomatos, radish, green onions and a blob of chicken salad.

 

 

 

Cavemen Didn't Eat Bagels

 

For years I was a prisoner to a bad and unpleasant relationship.

 

Even after it ended... for months of dealing with the emotions and fall out from being mistreated, I felt that my heart and soul were weak and damaged.

 

Now I realize that I'm keeping myself a prisoner in that old life... chaining myself to it... allowing it to be ever present in my physical appearance and wellbeing...

 

Everything comes with time... My friend Tara said on my blog many months ago that I should just keep doing what I'm doing and when it stops working for me, then and only then will I change it.  Well, it hasn't been 'working' for me for some time... but everyone has their own tolerance for things that don't work... Or how deeply their head is stuck in the sand.

 

My very astute and healthy plan of emotional self care has gone well... I moved into a new apartment, I've removed unnecessary stress from my life and now it's time to get my physical wellbeing back in shape.  I already am removing toxic chemical laden cosmetics and body products from my regimen... No more of the 'dirty dozen'... don't get me wrong, I haven't gone wild and thrown everything away, but the stuff that isn't TOO bad gets used up and never replaced and the really awful stuff gets tossed.  If you want to learn more about this, go to THIS LINK.  And if you want a handy dandy wallet card for when you're out and about shopping, download one here  

With that done, the next thing to consider was my diet.  I think what pushed me over the edge was how tired I am all the damn time and the weird skin condition that I am getting on my hands... which I suspect is from using so much hand sani now that I take the bus everywhere, but is probably not being helped by my diet.

 

SO!

 

I'm giving myself a gift of 30 days to try a new (to me, not in general) eating routine.  What I'm doing now isn't working to make me feel like I'm caring for myself, and since I'm an adult, the only person that can take the lead on caring for me, is me. 

 

I'm not posting pictures or stats... but I will let you know what I'm doing and most importantly if it's helping me to feel better or not.  I'm not alone on my journey as aforementioned Tara and my gorgeous Sister have been successful in this particular eating habit.  It's not that complicated.  Cut out grains, don't eat junk.  I believe the community calls it Paleo... I call it, Cavemen Didn't Eat Bagels.

 

Stay tuned.

 

Oh and thanks for all the feedback about me being a responsible adult and not dragging home a new kitty... even a kitty as cute as Cheerio... it means a lot to me... :(

About being a responsible adult

Well, let's be honest, it sucks.  And it sucks hard!

 

Having a good consience is a total pain in the ass because it means you can't just go ahead with whatever you want without thinking about the affect it has...

 

As you may know, I decided to get a kitty companion for Mr. Fluffypants.  After my dad left, he seemed really lonely and his behavior during my dad's visit was more engaged... probably because there was an additional person to pay attention to him.  So, since I'm only one person I decided that this fall I would take my holidays and get Mr. Fluffypants a friend.

 

Then, pretending I'm not an emotionally driven person, I started looking at pictures of kitties... kittens and cats for adoption in Vancouver... Kittens and cats with sad stories and sad eyes and hungry for love and cuddles.  Kittens and cats that don't deserve the twist that life handed to them.  I fell in love with plenty of them... searching the shelter websites daily... until I found Cheerio.  The moment I opened her profile page and her picture appeared, my heart was cooked... She was beautiful and only 11 months old... piercing green eyes and a look that melts your heart.  And she was orange and white, which I find insanely cute.  Her profile said that she had just had a hernia surgery that was likely trauma induced and that she loves to cuddle and be held.  I imagined her crawling into bed with me and snuggling... I imagined her and Charlie nestled up on the sofa together sharing a nap in a sunbeam...

 

So I emailed the SPCA to determine if she was going to be the right fit.  Also, since she was an hour away, I had to make sure that I could meet her and bring her home the same day...

 

I told Charlie all about his girlfriend/sister and how much he would love her... I emailed my landlord to get permission to have a second kitty (since the SPCA won't give a cat to a renter without landlord permission).

 

I arranged for Sam to drive me up to Squamish to go and get her... and then my stomach started to tumble...

 

I thought of my existing kitty who started sleeping closer and cuddling more... I thought of how difficult it might be for him to have his routine disrupted, even tho eventually they would get along.  I thought about the fact that I hadn't planned anything like getting a new litter box or setting up her little bed in her isolation room.  I thought about how dang hot it's been in my apartment... and mostly I thought about my fear that my existing cat, who I love more than life itself might stop loving me...How he had been through so much change in the last two and a half months and how he didn't really deserve to be thrown into a tumble again with more change.

 

Thinking about my existing cat and how hurt his little feelings might have been reminded me that I'm a responsible adult.  It wasn't the right time... Having a gurgle gut in response to getting a new pet isn't the right reaction... I knew that I should stick to my plan of adopting another kitty in the late fall when it was cool outside and proper preparations had been made.  When Mr. Fluffypants was better adjusted to living inside... when his recollection of all the change was faded and barely there...

 

So I called Sam and called off the trip to go get Cheerio.  And then I cried... all the way home on the bus... (that's about 45 min).  And when I got home I poured as much love and affection on Charlie as he would allow...and I dragged him to bed for a snuggle.  (which was ineffective because shortly after that I started throwing up and that really freaked the little bugger out!).

 

He's still sleeping close and cuddly on the bed and I'm still telling him that he's getting a sister/girlfriend... but when the time is right... like a responsible adult...

 

 

What relaxation looks like

There are piles of toss cushions in the living room...

 

A sleeping bag, set of rumpled sheets and a few blankets are in a nest on the sofa...

 

Dirty wine glasses and rocks glasses litter the counter in the kitchen...

 

A mess?  No, I say!  An indication of the most relaxed and lovely time I've had in years!  I gave up my rules about shoes in the house and people sleeping on the sofa.  About doing dishes the second they're dirty and fluffing the cushions the second they're flat...

 

I napped on the sofa using a balled up fitted sheet as a pillow and the cat nestled in to a nest of blankets and sleeping bag.  There's a bed pillow on the sofa (which is TOTALLY against the rules) and I have no desire to move it.

 

I'm high on the glow of spending three quality days with my dad... we walked and rode the bus and ate and drank (and drank and drank) and laughed our heads off... we made jokes and made fun of eachother... we talked about serious stuff... reminisced about the past, took a look into the future. We listened to live jazz and drank beers... laughing at the people around us... We were asleep early and up just as early...

We played with the kitty and laughed at his ridiculous antics

 

Every moment was divine and perfect.  I'm completely exhausted... not really used to having company for more than a few hours and not really used to having to be 'on' all the time so I'm tired and definitely will need a couple evenings of down time to recover, but I wouldn't have it any other way.

 

I'm going to go home tonight and make a Smashbook page for all the little bits and pieces that we collected over our three days...

 

For now I will drink gallons of coffee and attempt to stay awake until it's time to go home.

 

 

Catching up

It's a little late to do a weekend recap, but that's not really going to stop me...

 

On Friday night I went with a friend and got a pedicure.  Can't say I was totally thrilled with the service... it was kind of a quick and dirty thing, but I tried a new nailpolish... China Glaze.  It's very nice and comes in some pretty awesome colors.  I didn't catch the name of mine but I can only describe it as Neon Coral... after that we went and had a veggie burger at our fave spot and then I took the train/bus home.  I have to say, I feel so much more relaxed in my day to day life since I don't drive as much.  Hopping on the train to get home after a long work day and a fun evening out was awesome.  I was so tired by that point that I was standing in the corner of the train with my eyes closed... pretty hard to do that in the drivers seat of a car...

 

On Saturday the fluffball got me up nice and early, which was fine because we had to get the house in tip top shape for our company.  My mom came over for the first time since the day I moved and I wanted the place to be spotless.  The funny thing is, it's always spotless now.  Moving there has given me a renewed sense of pride and respect for my house (which disappeared some time ago in the old house) and I like to tidy and putter again!  After a quick tour we headed off to Ikea to look for some new furniture for my mom's new place.  I grabbed a few little odds and ends and then it was back home to visit.  While we were sitting in the dining room, it occured to me that I hated my sofa... the back cushions were all discolored and wobbly from misuse (thanks to a certain someone that used to declare on a regular basis that he hated the sofa and therefore wasn't going to take care of it).  So we took off the back cushions and used my collection of toss cushions to line the back of the sofa.  Sunday I went to Homesense and picked out a couple more to fill in and now my sofa is way more comfy, almost brand new looking and there's no remnants of the olden days.  I even took the old cushion covers and cut the nice part of the fabric out and used it to line the cat bed... so his bed matches the sofa now ;)

 

This weekend my dad comes!  I'm so excited!  I haven't seen him since April of last year and my head wasn't in a great place then... We have no big plans except the family bbq on Saturday at my sister's house and he wants to go to Golf Town.  We might also go out to Granville Island on Saturday morning and there's a little hole in the wall restaurant that we went to together about 8 years ago that he wants to revisit... Three days of rest and relaxation and quality time.  Can't wait!  I feel a little bad for my dad tho cause he lives in a house on a lake, miles from town... I live near the corner of one of Vancouver's busiest intersections... his place is pitch black when the sun goes down... my place has a street light that shines right into the house.  I've decided that he'll be happiest sleeping in the living room... furthest away from the street and has blackout drapes... the only thing is that the kitty has a bad habit of walking around the house at night meowing really loud... and there's almost nothing I can do to make him stop... maybe I should give my dad earplugs ;)

 

Here's a picture of the 'new' sofa...

 

 

Thursday

GOOD MORNING!

 

It's (was) a beautiful morning in Vancouver!  I got up at 6:45am and my prisms in the living room window (why yes, I am trying to be a hippy!) were casting gorgeous vivid rainbows all over the walls!  Mr Fluffypants was curled on the bed in a beam of warm sunlight... What a lovely way to wake up!

 

It's not as gorgeous now... it's overcast but about 20 degrees (68F) and it's not raining.  Summer might be trying to bust in... I keep reading about heatwaves in other places and people trying to cope with sleeping in the heat and hydrating enough... and it seems weird to me until I remember that it's 3/4 of the way through June and it's been shit weather here until yesterday.

 

So, for all you cat people out there, I have a question.  As you know, Mr. Fluffypants used to be an indoor/outdoor cat.  He had free reign to come and go as he pleased and he was usually pretty happy.  Then we moved to the new apartment and he got his tummy sickness... then he recovered and he seemed pretty happy.  We played, he ate and drank and used the litter box... He seemed to be a bit whinier than he ever was before but nothing too serious.

 

NOW??  He's the biggest crybaby EVER!  Seriously... he meows and cries and carries on... he paws at me constantly if I'm not standing up or moving around... If the pawing doesn't work, he tries biting... He's still eating and drinking and using the litter box and doing all his happy cat stuff, but the crying is getting to me...

 

Having never had a cat before, I'm not sure... is it just that he's a loud and needy cat?  Are there cats out there that are just really loud and chatty?  For five years I barely heard him meow and now he doesn't stop meowing...It does seem a bit worse since I fixed the windows and now we can open them so he can smell outside...

 

Nothing else really exciting going on... I'm investigating a volunteer opportunity that has been on my mind for a while now (well years really), but until I find out the details, you'll all just have to wait and see ;)

Ranty Rant

 

So a couple of you wanted to know what my big rant was that I decided not to post the other day.

 

Basically the people in my building are pigs.  They throw plastic bags and fast food wrappers into the recycling... and old lamps... Instead of putting the newsprint in the newsprint bags, they crumple it up and throw it on the floor.  This type of assinine behavior makes me crazy... partly because it's slovenly and partly because they're doing it knowing that once a week our landlord comes and cleans it all up.

 

A coworker of mine was listening to me rant and rave about this and told me that I'd have to 'get used to' that type of behavior because it's the 'landlords job' to take care of it.  I mentioned that whenever I'm in that area, I tidy up the recycling and put the garbage in the garbage etc... partly because it embarasses me that people are such idiots and partly because the entire building is my home and I don't particularily like going down to do laundry and finding a weeks worth of detritus in the recycling bins.

 

The rant was that I was being told to 'get used to being complacent' because now that I lived in an apartment building, there was no need to worry aobut that type of thing... I think that is a disgusting attitude.  While I'm not going to get bent out of shape if I don't clean it up one time, and I don't think it's expected of me, I ask you this... if we all decided to be complacent in our lives because we expected someone else to take care of it... of us, then what would our world and our lives look like?

 

In other apartment news, on Saturday morning my normally kind of loud upstairs neighbour (the one that plays his music and his guitar loud enough to hear down the block) seemingly had a mental break and was jumping up and down on the floor, slamming doors and screaming obscenities... He's done this before... about a handful of times but this time was actually frightening... it sounded like he was going to come through the floor and the screaming was angry and violent.  So I called my landlord and asked if there was something I should know about him... like did he have bipolar disorder or was he a serial killer... the landlord went and had a talk with him and I got this shoved under my door a few hours later.  You can't really tell, but it's actually a photocopy of a note.  The last line was added on in pen, but the rest of it is a copy... kind of offputting that this guy has what seems to be a stack of 'I'm Sorry' notes to hand out when his behavior gets to be too much...

 

Some things just don't translate...

So instead of the big ranty rant I was going to write, I'll tell you about my weekend and show you pictures instead.

 

His Royal Catness allowed me to sleep in on Saturday.  Partly because we had to be up whining and fooling around for an hour at 3am...

It was a LOUSY weather day out, so I stayed in my jammies and tottled from the sofa to the bed and back again until 3pm when I had a shower and boarded a bus bound for downtown. My friend picked me up and we went out for dinner and then to her studio to work on our art projects.  Mine is all done (I think) and waiting to come home and find a place on the walls of the fabulous new pad!

 

On Sunday, Sam and I went out for brunch... what was supposed to be an hour close to my house turned into three hours miles and miles away from my house with an accidental bridge crossing thrown in for good measure!  When we were all done, Sam dropped me off in a little shopping district near his house and I poked around for a while before I hopped on a bus to go home.  I put that in there because those of you who know me in  the real world know that until about two months ago, I was VERY anti-bus... not interested, had a car thank you very much... but now, I love the bus and I take it everywhere I can!

 

While at the little shopping district, I found a great big white serving bowl on clearance at Homesense.  It ws $10 and perfect to plant a succulent garden in.  I contemplated doing this myself, but then with the cost of the dirt, moss, tools, plants and the fact that I'm not exactly all that talented when it comes to gardening, I took the bowl to a little flower shop and twenty minutes later had a work of art to call my own.

 

After heaving the 40lb bowl of wet dirt home on the bus, I decided to do some 'home improvements' before I took a shower and got some stuff done off my list of things to do before Dad gets here. 

 

So I screwed the seats to the dining chairs (finally) so we don't have an accident... hung a huge painting up in the entrance in order to hide the electrical panel, oiled the small table in the entry way and then went outside and painted and stained an antique chair that my Grandpa gave me.  I don't recommend spray painting when it's windy out... there's spray paint on my glasses... whoops!

The chair used to be in pieces, with pieces missing and the entire thing was coated in many many layers of very old oil paint... so many layers of thick old paint that the carving on the back rest was almost invisible... So my grandpa stripped that part of the chair, made replacement pieces for the parts missing and then I spray painted the body black and the back rest was stained to match the chairs in the dining room.  It's now a gorgeous little chair sitting in my bedroom.  It belonged to my Great Grandparents, where it lived in a cabin on a lake for years... My grandpa was going to throw it away as he wasn't interested in stripping all the paint off the turned spindles... I spotted it in his workshop at Easter and now it's got a new life in my home.

 

Other than that, I spent some sofa time and some knitting time and then went to bed early...

 

Tonight is grocery shopping and laundry.

Apparently my Dining Room is 'sophisticated'.

 

 

Water

I was reading a blog that had writing prompts this morning... just to see if I could find something to inspire me.  I found a prompt to write about ice cream memories from my childhood.  The first memory that popped into my mind was walking to Dairy Queen with my Grandma in the summer time to get a Peanut Buster Parfait.  Sounds like a good memory, right?  Well, in part yes, but the actual overwhelming memory is being quite young and it being VERY hot outside. I can distincly remember that I was parched (altho not knowing how to define that feeling at the time) and my feet were hot and swollen...

This is actually a feeling that I remember very well from many times in my childhood.  Being hot, thirsty and miserable.  Hating how the heat from the asphalt uncomfortably warmed my ankles and calves. Hating how uncomfortable I was. I also remember that whenever we would ask for a drink, often the answer was 'wait till we get home'.

 

I don't remember water being as big a deal in my childhood (23 years ago) as it is now. 

 

When we were in school we had to ask permission to go get a drink of water at the water fountain in the hallway (in HIGH SCHOOL!).  No food or drink was allowed in the classrooms.  When I cashiered (about 13 years ago) we weren't allowed to have a bottle of water at our tills, even tho we would chat for hours with the customers and there was never an opportunity to take a quick break.

 

Now children are sent to school with water bottles.  They keep them at their desks.  Cashiers keep water bottles at their stations.  Everyone has a re-usable water bottle and for the most part, of the people that I know, they guard it with their lives. My sister and her hub and I were driving home from a family outting and when I realized I forgot my water bottle, she made her hub turn us around and go back for it because as she said 'I couldn't live without mine... I presumed you were the same'.

 

I always have my water bottle with me now.  I have one on my desk and one in my house and then one I take with me if I'm going somewhere other than my office or my house. 

 

I hardly ever get 'thirsty' now.  Drinking water all day is just a habit now... I don't think it's healthy to 'get thirsty'... I know it's not good for me.  The other day I was out shopping with Sam and all of a sudden I was THIRSTY... like in a panic, burst into tears, find me a drink of water right this second or I'm going to freak the fuck out, thirsty.  Good thing for me we were in a store that sold water, and we went and grabbed some straight away.  I don't know why I get into a panic like that... it's probably not rational...

 

So that got me to thinking... as I sat in a bubble bath this weekend because it was FREEZING in my house... I should have brought my water bottle in here... nothing more refreshing than drinking ice cold water in a hot bubble bath... I wonder if people in countries with no free flowing, cold, drinkable water get that same panicky feeling I get, or if they're so used to being thirsty that they don't even recognize it.

I wondered how it could be that I can turn my tap on and let the water run into the drain until it's ice cold, but millions of people can't get a drink when they want it.... and then the horror hit me.  I'm sitting in a bathtub full of DRINKABLE water.  I'm soaking myself in 70 gallons (GALLONS) of clean, fresh drinking water.  I can tell you, I jumped out of that bathtub like someone dropped a hair dryer in...

 

It reminded me that I take a lot of things for granted... I screach and scream as if I'm 'dying of thirst' when my beloved water bottle isn't inches from my hands... never for a second thinking that had I been born somewhere else... I would be one of 783 MILLION people that don't have access to clean drinking water.

 

As I was looking for statistics, I came across an organization called Drop in The Bucket.  I poked around a bit and will do more research about how I can help, but in the meantime, I bought a new glass water bottle.  All the profit from these particular bottles will be directly used to provide clean water to schools in Uganda and South Sudan.  They're limited edition so if you want one, go to this here website.

 

Who are you?

I think I like who I am now... who I've become.

 

I used to be what I can only assume was obnoxious.  I was REALLY loud and the life of the party... I wanted everyone to like me and I saw no reason why they shouldn't.

I never had an opinion on anything.  Did I like this food or that food?  I always liked everything... I never knew that it was okay to decide one day that you weren't so fond of X.

I was also scared a lot... scared that I was going to do something or say something and embarass myself.  Scared that someone important to me wouldn't like me anymore.

Scared of the dark.  Of Spiders.  Of dryer lint and potatoes and balloons. Of heights and bridges. It's a wonder I ever went outside!

 

 

The me now is much more powerful than the younger me.  I don't want to say that my childhood wasn't supportive, because it was, but I feel like the me that I became was powered entirely from within.  One day I decided that I didn't like something.  And that was okay.  I realized that if someone doesn't like me, that's not the end of the world.  I discovered that a fight isn't the end of a solid relationship.  I discovered that it's okay to express my opinion... and that it's okay to not express my opinion.  I realized that if someone wants to talk about something and I don't want to participate, I dont' have to.  For many years, choosing not to engage in a conversation was not accepted.  Usually these conversations were about how flawed we (me and my sister) were, or how we weren't conducting our lives the way some members of our family thought we should.  And choosing not to discuss personal details of our lives got scathing insults and the whole thing usually ended in tears.

Now... NOW!  Just try and make me talk about something I don't want to.  I feel that as I grew into myself, I found a voice.  One who's primary responsibility is to stand up for and protect me.  As a person that will share 99.9% of everything about me with you, this voice is the one that holds on to that tiny percentage... and no amount of shaming, or cajoling or insulting will get me to give that away.

 

I enjoy who I am now...

What your house does at night (or Why I'm not scared of my Living Room anymore)

All my life I've been afraid of my house at night time.  Well, let me clarify.  I believed that once you turned the television off and all the lights off and retreated to your bedroom, it was not appropriate to go anywhere in the house again until morning except your bedroom and the bathroom. 

What happened in your house at night... whatever parties the furniture threw and however drunk the ottoman got were none of your concern and certainly you weren't invited.  That makes it sound funny, but in truth, for 33 years I've always remembered being scared of my house at night time.  Even if at some point I had to get up super early for work or a trip, I would make sure to use as little of the house as possible, lest I 'interrupted' something... (I'm fully aware I sound like a mental patient).

 

Well it occurred to me at 3am this morning (when the cat had a little fit and needed to have cuddles while he was sitting on his cat scratcher in the living room and NO WHERE ELSE!) that I'm not scared of my house.  I can go anywhere in the whole place at any time of the day or night and feel safe and comfortable.  I tried to think of reasons this might be and I came up with a few.  First, I've never lived somewhere that there's a door to the outside and then a door to my apartment.  That means it's twice as difficult for naredowells to get into my house.  Racoons can't climb through the windows either, which is a bonus...

Reason #2 is that all the people in my building are wonderful.  Everyone is friendly and while they mostly seem to keep to themselves, there's an air of common care.

Reason #3 is that the energy in my house feels comfortable.  It's a safe, friendly, warm (even tho there's no heat right now and it's freezing!) place to be and there's truly nothing to be scared of.  It's bigger, which means that there's less dark corners because everything is so much more spread out...

 

Anyway, it's a nice feeling to not be afraid of your house... and while I'll still respect the furniture's personal time and I don't expect to be invited to the parties, I feel that my whole house is mine at any hour... And the ottoman is in the bedroom now... getting drunk is no longer an option!

Rain rain... GO AWAY!

This weather is absolute bullshit!  I mean, I'm not one that really cares what it's doing outside, but come ON!  It's June and it's forcasted to rain for the next seven days... could be longer but the weather network only puts the next 7 days up.

 

I guess I'll be doing indoor things this weekend.  That's not really necessarily a bad thing... I still have painting of the bedroom wall to do, I have to hang my dining light that I successfully rewired, I have a ton of knitting to do and I'm not sad about having to snuggle the kitty either.

 

My friend Sharon is coming over to finally see the new place and I think we're having Mimosas... because we're fancy like that ;)

 

Not much to report otherwise.  The cat is feeling better altho he has a cold right now... He seems to be getting into a stride of living in the house and not going outside (altho I did have a dream that I took him to some sort of fair on his harness and leash and then forgot to keep holding the leash and he disappeared...).  He's very energetic in the mornings and quite enjoys playing with his new favorite toy, the bath mat... also he loves it when I chase him, so he runs around like a lunatic.  It's really funny and there's nothing better first thing in the morning that having a genuine laugh... starts the day off right!  He's also getting friendlier to visitors and he's getting more confident with me, so he enjoys climbing on me while I sleep and getting really close and staring.  It might not seem like much, but from his first days with me when i couldn't even pet him to now is a drastic change.

 

A long time ago when I worked at the yarn store, I fell in love with a beautiful red ribbed scarf.  The yarn seemed to glow and it was insanely soft.  It was a sample sent to the store by the yarn vendor and since I was the most junior staff member, I was at the bottom of a long list of people that wanted the scarf when it was done being a sample.  Since I knit, i COULD knit it myself, but it's 3x3 ribbing with pretty slim yarn and to be honest, I knew even if I bought the yarn, I'd never finish it.  So imagine my joy when another local yarn store decided to close and sell off all their samples.  I bought the scarf and don't regret the $40 I spent at all!  The yarn alone would have cost $60, plus knitting it forever, so it's a pretty good deal!

 

It's made of NZ Merino and NZ Possum (which apparently has two s's because it's 'so soft' according to someone) and it SHOULD be way to warm to wear in June, but here I am... wearing it... today.

Long Weekend

 

I'm so excited for the long weekend coming up.  You wanna know why?  Because I need a break!  I feel as tho I've been on the move or fighting fires for weeks now... It should have been a lovely Friday and Saturday night, when the kitty and I were supposed to be celebrating living in the new apartment for two weeks. (for him, two weeks was on Saturday).  Instead of celebrating, Mr. Fluffypants got really sick on Friday night and by Saturday morning he was really despondant and crying a lot... so I took him to the vet for some emergency blood tests and a shot of fluids under his fur so he didn't get dehydrated.  We lolled around on the sofa for the rest of Saturday, with me waking him every hour to feed him so he didn't get sicker... On Sunday the vet called to tell us that he had Pancreatitis and the warning signs for Fatty Liver Disease, which can be lethal for kitties.  So I went down to the vet hospital and picked up some pain killers and some oral anti-nauseants for him and then spent Sunday cuddling and feeding the little babe.

 

He seems to be doing much better now... he's been eating and drinking like a champ and using the litter box and walking around investigating... I even got him somewhat interested in his favorite toy, altho he wasn't interested enough to actually play. 

 

When I came home on Monday from my meeting, he managed to escape out the door and take himself on a ten second hallway adventure... I caught up to him and scooped him up before he got too far, but it was nice to see him interested in something other than laying on the sofa.

 

So, after spending a month packing, moving, and now this, we're ready for a break in the action.  I'm hoping to paint the bedroom wall this weekend and get the chandelier fixed so it's not sitting on it's cart anymore...

Other than that, I have no real plans... I'd like to go for a walk in my neighborhood and generally relax... get a good nights sleep without worrying that the kitty is going to die in the night... not clean up barf from ten places in the house at once.... you know... chill

Kitty Vibes

My fluffo is very sick :(

Please send him your good vibes and get well thoughts so he can get on with tearing up the boxspring on my bed as soon as possible!

Pictures... yes, again!

I promise to actually write something one of these days, but in the meantime, have some more pictures of my new house... it's slowly becoming warm and homey... normally I wouldn't show pictures of my house online, but the other one was such a tiny little place... I want to say about half the size... and I'm SO happy here that I can't help but want to share!

Here's the kitchen...

 

Here's the dining area...  I haven't had a dining height table and proper chairs in about 15 years... I love mealtimes now!

Here's a couple of the office that I showed last time, but now the shelves are up and it's organized.

And here's a shot of Mr. Fluffypants' new favorite place to lay... under the table.  He's doing amazing also... I went on a three day vacay and Sam took care of him.  He did very well!  He's very cuddly now and sleeps through the night... I can go out the door now without bribing him with treats and he LOVES to play, both with me and by himself.  He's a funny little beastie and I'm SO HAPPY that he seems to be okay here.  Now, don't get me wrong, he'd take off out the window given the chance, but we're not going to let that happen... I bought him a harness and a leash and next week we'll see if we can go for a walk in the hallway out the door... if he does well, which I think he will, then we're going to go to the beach and I'll take him for a walk outside most days...

 

 

HouseKeeping

I have a fever... and a runny nose... and I can't stop sweating... and my head is pounding in a 'being hit in the head with an axe' sort of way... If I didn't have a meeting at 1pm today and it wasn't my director's last day before her month off (in which I have to cover for her), I would be in my bed...

 

As it is, I'm looking for something easy and useful to knit on our weekend getaway... If you want the details, go visit my Sister and see her pictoral telling of our trip.

 

I'm thinking of making some more garter stitch slippers.  You see, while I love the idea of not having carpet, which should hopefully in the long run keep the cat dander more controllable, it turns out I do not LIKE bare feet on hardwood... I do have one pair of slippers that I knit for myself, but I made them a bit big and they fall off when I'm laying on the sofa... plus, one pair worn every day isn't going to last long.

 

I think I've decided on these.  They're knit flat in garter for the most part... I think I'm going to make them in Orange... I've got some wool/acrylic blend which will assist in them holding up longer... acrylic will survive the apocolypse!  And I dont' think I'll put the flower on... that just gets snagged on long pants.

 

 

Sam came over last night for Kitty School. He learned all about the litterbox, treats, toys and catnip.  And most important, not to let the cat out or open the windows... Mr. Fluffypants is becoming more comfortable in his house and has started fooling around at night, which doesn't please me, but is really quite funny... and he's excersising his singing voice on a regular basis... Especially at 4 in the morning... while he jumps from the window sill to the bed to the window sill to the bed....

 

Oh, and I see the pictures didn't work of the office yesterday... here they are again...

 

 

The Office

This is my 'office'.  I prefer to call it that, rather than 'craft room' altho it's for sure dual purpose.  The cubbies still need some organization, but I'm actually loving that the top of that cabinet has all sorts of knicks and knacks on it... maybe not THOSE ones, but I like the feel of it being sort of busy and interesting...

What you can't see is behind me (and the camera) there's a huge armoire and closet... the room is huge... 9x13.  Plenty of room for blocking (with a door that shuts to keep out nosy kitties) and oodles of daylight!

The white shelf by the window in the second picture will be hung over the desk to keep my bits and bobs on...

Back... in the new digs

Hello Beautiful People!

So sorry it took me so long to get back here, but moving is TOUGH!  Also tough is typing on my computer as this desk wobbles... may need to do a bit more 'leveling'.

The move went super well.  My gorgeous and long time bestee came over on the morning before the move and we power packed everything that was left...it would have been a NIGHTMARE if I hadn't packed about 85% of it before hand... what was I thinking!  Anyway, we got it all done, found ourselves wine and dinner and then toasted the ol' place good bye.  Perhaps it would have been smarter to NOT drink two bottles of wine when the movers were showing up at 8am, but we did... so we dragged our hungover selves over to the coffee shop for sustenance and major caffeine and then headed back to get started.  

the move itself went very smoothly, altho it took about twice as long as I thought it would because of all the stairs... I would have paid ten times what I did to not have to do it myself tho... 

On Friday night, bestee was still here and my mom came over to help unpack and by the time they left on Friday afternoon, there were only two boxes left to unpack... 

On Saturday I went and picked up Charlie Fluffypants from the cat hotel and brought him home.  He's been doing amazingly well.  He was very brave and curious the first day and he's figured out the litterbox and sleeps in bed with me every night... he definitely would make a run for it if I let him but I'm thinking that will go away soon... he's only been home four days... but he's not crying and he naps and plays and gets lots and lots of cuddles... 

All in all, it was a very long and tiring month of April and especially the end of it, but I'm in an amazing new home now with so much daylight all the time that it's 9pm and I haven't yet had to turn any lights on... in the morning I can do my hair and makeup by only the light coming through the window... magnificent!

Time to level the legs of this table before it falls on me!

TTFN!